Replying to @rat_in._.a_hat idk if this is the answer you were looking for but I’m so sorry you’re not feeling the most cash money right now. I hope if anything you can be glad you’re not like me! Or maybe you are which I’m truly so sorry if you are. It is truly humiliating. It goes so against who I am and my character. I work so hard to be put together and NOT a burden on those around me and yet I have moments like that where I completely lose myself and it feels like I’ll never be me again. You’re probably wondering whyyy do you take those if it does that to you? The benefits far surpass the negatives considering I have mental breakdowns like that with or without there’s just a higher probability of me entering that headspace when I have taken it if that makes sense? And it is a last resort for me. I have such bad chronic fatigue and fog normally that I’ll wake up from a 12 hour slumber exhausted (completely s0ber, no grass, no meds, no caffeine even). I did use to take it way more regularly. When I stopped taking it I felt so down and depressed and insane I decided I’d never take it everyday like that again. The no sleep thing is so real and only makes the crazy feeling worse. Only thing that helped me with sleep was $moking some grass but that had it’s own set of problems once I started relying on it. Idk how long this video will stay up cuz I don’t tell anyyyyone about this lol. The only people who know are the people who have been witness to it which I can probably count on one hand.... If i exclude the mental breakdowns I had at work 🫠 It used to happen way less but somehow I’ve only devolved into my adulthood 🤦🏻‍♀️ i swear nobody better bully me because truly there is nothing more I hate about myself than this . The only active diagnosis i have rn is adhd but uhhhh i think there’s a little more to this soup i just cant afford to find out right now so I’m raw dogging life #sorryitsmari