it’s hard to not feel melancholy as your babies get older. I finished weaning Hayes and oh, the emotions. I keep reminding myself how much I love the joy of them getting bigger & having more ability. Yet the ache of time running makes me think I need to grab it to keep it still rather than run alongside it. It’s tempting to think of time running away from us & letting fear creep in that we must’ve missed it all. Truth needs reminders & the truth is that each moment of their little lives keeps building into more. More beautiful discoveries, more words, more laughter, more chosen moments of being present together. I love right now with my babies. I won’t let my mind run ahead or slow behind, because today has so much in it with them. And today I watched Hayes discover snow for the first time, and it was good.