If only folks knew that suffering could be the one that can set you free...... That’s a powerful statement but so fucking true. I woke up one day a few weeks ago thinking to myself what am I doing wrong ? I was tired and embarrassed to look in the mirror, I was ashamed of who I became. Let me explain..... I was tired of making excuses to myself on why my kids and I don’t talk, I was making excuses why my kids don’t reach out to their Grandparents, I was making excuses on why my relationship with my partner isn’t better, why I was so anxious with showing up to my partners families functions. My constant battle with weight as well as my battle with my EGO and having very limited Self love for myself has been ongoing since I’ve been born, because i never have felt like I AM ENOUGH... But thanks to Suffering I was able to really have a difficult conversation with myself as I constantly do, but this convo was different. I urged myself and willed myself to get back to therapy, took the time to be in silence for days and zoom out . I keep remembering @bornimusic telling the kids at the family retreat “YOU ARE ENOUGH “ ...... I needed this I also need to thank @tobymorse for inspiring to go on a 11 day Juice cleanse , i needed that tune up like a MOFO but not only that something clicked mentally and spiritually I went into this last Vipassana ready to explore what I needed to do to move on and to better myself. In the silence I didn’t cry In the silence looked at everything!!!!!! My kids, my parents, my relationships my self and came to peace that I am flawed, i am broken, I am scared of failing, I’m scared of not achieving...so I met those feelings head on and made peace that these feelings do not define me, evolution and abundance comes from work and inner strength and I am enough... I am enough You are enough We are enough!!!!! Thank you @bornimusic Also shout out to Therapy and sitting in silence. Thank you @tobymorse for inspiring me to go on this juice cleanse and helping me reshape my love affair with self again. Being 48 in this body is complicated but I love it and I’m present in knowing that life is impermanence.... Thank you for letting me rant ✨✨✨🙏🏿 Namo