so many thoughts after another trip around the sun and we january babies get a double whammy of new year, new me syndrome. but these are what came out when i took the time to actually write them down. first: so effing greatful for all of you in my life. whether or not we've met irl, i feel super lucky to have a tribe of folks that help make the internet a slightly less toxic place and help each other feel like things are hopefully gonna be ok probably. second: i've been on such a wild healing journey this past couple years from *the backstory* that it sometimes feels like it's never gonna quit feeling so crappy. like this constant low-grade grief will never actually leave. but i'm probably ok with that since there are also so many glimmers of joy along the way that make me greatful for the capacity to even be able to feel anything at all. third: i guess i feel like yet another year to live has given me even more perspective on what brings me joy in my daily life and that seems like a gift to keep exploring. i know younger me would be proud of who i am today and for how i'm still healing and growing into the person i would have needed to know so long ago. love you all, and thank you for all the wonderful bday wishes. ♡ z