Shared by MU Mama @arerevivalsociety - I got unexpectedly pregnant in March of 2019. I was not financially ready for a child and I did not feel emotionally ready either. I was just getting into the good part of my business and boom, overnight I was pregnant. I was terrified. I was in pain. I felt helpless. Not realizing how much this child would change my life the second they entered this world, I became resentful fast. He didn’t feel like mine. He felt like a stranger. My husband even said, “They expect us to take this thing home and take care of it.” They don’t prepare you for what it really takes to be a mom. I would wish for things to be different. I wanted my old life back. It was a shock to my whole body. But as I started to work through my pain and release myself from the misery I felt I was living in, I started to realize how big of a blessing my first was. He started my husband on his path to find true healing and is what made me realize how powerful and strong I really was. He helped me realize my full purpose. As much as I wasn’t prepared physically for motherhood, I was emotionally prepared to work through anything that came my way. After having Liam, our first, we quickly had our second, Luca. There was a little bit of love at first site like people talk about but as the days went on it brought havoc to my body in ways I did not experience with Liam. My body shut down. I appeared to be super anxious which led to depression. I was falling apart all over again after I had just gained momentum after having my first. I eventually started to find the real love I had for my children. I know my kids were brought here for a bigger purpose that I have yet to fully see. I am so grateful for my kids as they have helped me grow in ways I never knew were possible. I want you to know no matter how you feel about motherhood, it’s valid because it’s your story and your truth. Being a mom is one of the hardest things I have ever done yet also the most powerful. I am here for the mama who still feels like she is living in that traumatic birth, that pain and doesn’t know how to move through it. I am sending my love to you mama. You’ve got this.