Yesterday I woke up early and drove to the beach with my dad to watch my nephews while my brother and sister setup for Sam’s first birthday. It’s difficult to be present when I’m tired. I observed that. Then we took the kids to the party on the beach with my family. It was really nice. I went swimming with Luke and ate a bunch of lemon cookies and talked with my cousins. Most of the family and friends in my life are married or have kids. I’m looking at a different reflection. I think I have some sort of strange musical baby in its infant stages instead of a human child or partner. My cousin got her car stuck in the sand and my brother dug her out. He’s good at stuff like that. I did nothing but held babies and stuff. After the beach I went home and went on a hike and meditated looking over the city. Then I went in the studio and received some amazing words and melodies and sang it over a beat that S1 sent me. I paused and ate dinner and Cal made one of the best carrot cakes I’ve ever tasted from scratch. No lie. Cals a baking legend baking cakes and stuff. Then I meditated and went to bed. - diary