I haven’t been posting on the social media web2 much lately but here’s my diary. Woke up at 5am and worked out first thing. It’s part of a new habit I picked up. It was cold and I didn’t want to but I did it anyway and that was a small victory. After that I did my rituals and then meditated listening to Temple Mind. I love Phil’s meditation music. A vivid memory came to me of my father carrying me around as an infant. In the memory I was crying because I was confused. Maybe because I was new to earth and I couldn’t do much because now I was a baby. Maybe I was used to being an infinity beam of light capable of anything. Idk. But my father took me out under the stars and I remember looking up at the heavens and I felt home again. I could hear the distant crashing waves of the ocean and feel the cold air on my cheeks. And most of all I could feel my father’s love for me and I knew that everything was going to be okay. Then I went to sleep. It’s wild the deep memories stored in our subconscious. They are always there. We are living and embodying them. Some beautiful like this. Some painful and often unseen. After that I hung out in web3 for a while. We’re about to see the new Renaissance in art and I feel blessed to be here and blessed to be creating what we are with Josh and Matt and Jon and Dan and the whole Cthdrl team. I went to the studio and worked on some interludes then painted because I used to love to paint as a kid. I read for an hour or so and practiced scales on the piano. I’m understanding music more the more I understand my self. I went on a hike later and Ash drove by while I was climbing up a hill with my 5sos merch headphones because I’m a super fan. Then I watched the sunset. After that I took a swim in the icy cold pool. Of course with my pink goggles. It hurt. But the jacuzzi felt good after. Now I’m guna make a pizza and probably listen to ABBA. Maybe Miles Davis. Idk. Seems like I did a lot when I write it but the days keep feeling shorter. I’m still trying to be like the sun. Diary - El Roy