Saw this on @thewhitmore page and while we’re all being contemplative about life at this time of year, this statement here has been the biggest take home for me this year. The last few years have been very tough for me for a variety of reasons, but my life took an extreme turn at the beginning of the year and my head absolutely combusted. I went to Mexico for almost a month. A privilege for sure. I rested, I wrote, I had a lot of therapy and saw a shamen, did a lot of mushrooms and embraced shedding the chaos I had found myself living in. It changed my life. I challenged myself with things that I never knew I could do & made some major decisions. I decided to step down from all of my businesses. I had to suck a bitter pill that showed me that while I believe I am a good creative, I suck at business and that I am not functional within extremely stressful situations anymore. My people skills ride the extremes - I am hot headed, frustrated that no one really cares about the details like I do and that trying to fight that is a losing and painful battle. Money rules and I am personally not capable of finding the dream medium where you can make money and have integrity. That is the golden touch in business and it’s only won by few. All this mid recession. I really really tried, but I failed. Despite the pain of losing A LOT of hard earned cash and living with the wasted time, anguish, disruption and disappointment of it all, I have actually come out of this year happier. I feel evolved as a person. Lowering the frequency I have been activated in for the last 5 years has made a palpable difference to my mental health. I am calmer, cooler, happier, soberer - Fuck - I even fell deeply in love and was able to write some of my best work and get commissions. I’m almost back to the place where I can set my mind to anything - something business whipped out of me. Anyway, sometimes - what you want for yourself and what you are capable of are not the same. I have achieved credibility in pretty much everything I have done, awards, 5 star reviews, industry support to name a few, but right at this moment I need to look after myself and that is a whole new success❤️‍🔥