I’m a women who’s masculine very much overpowers her feminine I think everyone who knows me knows that. ive always struggled with sisterhood and feeling comfortable around female love.I find it extremely hard to show emotion.Extremely hard to trust women ever,Extremely hard to show love and affection,I find it hard to touch and hold those I love.I have a natural fear of being vulnerable,and I try to put up the front that I am always strong always together,always there for everyone when in reality most the time no and sometimes I’m actually quite sensitive.I’m always held back by my masculine ego,and I know that.My masculine insecurity of being vulnerable and showing emotion.I choose a fight over being open.I naturally rather attack than allow myself to be vulnerable.My ego can be so bad that even when I had 4 motorbike accidents in a row when living in the Costa Rica,I ended up in hospital completely ripped up,I still refused anybody’s help or support when in reality I physically was in the most horrible place I’d ever been and could barley walk. I wanted to write this for myself as a way of straightening my head,but also for all the women who struggle with the same.For all the women who struggle connecting with their feminine, struggle being comfortable in femininity,have never had the time in there life to be freely feminine or have never been given a safe space to feel there feminine and connect with themselves emotionally and physically.It’s naturalDon’t be ashamed of emotions,it ok to cry,it’s ok to want to be held,it’s ok to ask for things,it’s ok to not be good.It’s also really really ok to be angry sometimes ,don’t hide that,just let go.It’s ok to lash out.The rise of the Masculine does not have to be at the expense of the Feminine or vice versa.Its about the complete respect of differences that the Masculine and Feminine bring to physical and spiritual union.We need to keep space for all women.Your not any less powerful strong, beautiful ,attractive or loved for the truth.Pain is our school we learn from ourselves and each other, accept and be open. Just don’t believe everything you think.I’m eternally grateful for all my sisters,I love you guys. HAUX