TW; Vaguely long read (skip to bottom for cliffnotes) Just wanted to let yall know I've received your well wishes and kind regards and I've been racking my brain trying to figure out how to respond in a way that feels sufficient to me as i have a bad habit of tensing up in the face of tenderness. Initially, i made a bunch of collages of all these beautiful funny moments we've experienced over the years, but that didn't exactly feel right as it would be excluding a lot of people i neglected to be photographed with over the years. Ive been thinking a long and hard about this moment, its initial build-up, what the aftermath may be and i what i'd like to do regardless of the outcome. Throughout that process ive learned a lot about myself and how i view the world around me and how something as simple "i want this and i am willing to do whatever it takes to get it" has led me to so much more than i was asking for. Lately people have been asking me wether not am i excited and to be honest, i feel indifferent as the idea of a change to my anatomy has frankly been eclipsed by the overwhelming support and love ive experienced up to this point. I cant express enough how grateful i am to have laughed, cried, kiied, cackled, danced, held so many kind people who continue to inspire me to remain the blithe bitch i am. Baby Josue would in absolute awe of the woman i am today and its thanks to yall ♡ ,thank you