I’m rocking lily to sleep and I just remembered we forgot to take a family photo in our Easter outfits. It was one of those things where we were leaving church and the sun was really bright and the line for the photo booth was really long so we skipped it. I made Easter lunch and yelled at quite possibly everyone or maybe it was just that I was low key pissed at everyone for breathing. I made the French chicken for lunch but it was over cooked and so tough that you could barely chew it. I made the Easter bunny cupcakes but dropped half of them on the floor. And still..... despite my need for perfection everyone had fun. The boys are still playing with the neighbors in the backyard as I sit alone and rock lily thinking back on the sweet moments I missed because of my need for perfection. They don’t care about all the things I couldn’t accomplish but will have the memories with all the people. I still find myself tethered to the idea of perfection of what I want it to look like instead of going with what it is. There has been nothing comparable to last year that has been the biggest mirror into my need for Jesus. Today still shows me that. I heard the words from a fellow mother saying “I repent daily”. And it struck me. Today I’m deeply grateful for a love that is without walls without conditions without shame without a need for perfection. No guilt in life, no fear in death. I’m forever grateful for the reality of a savior who is everything I can never be for myself and for my kids. And I’m continually letting go of what I grasp so tightly and let love move in. Happy Easter my friends! I hope unconditional Love surrounds you today and everyday this year!