🕊 My name, mannerisms, the way I walk, drink, think, my self belief is from years of studying this man who has always been a Titan to me. And yet there’s so many things I have yet to understand. Death being one of them. For the last 60 days I’ve tried to bury myself in work, I’ve tried to read & pray my way through it, speak about you, not speak about it, and none of it stops the pain. I get that I am stronger as I process everything that has occurred lately. But sometimes it’s ok to acknowledge that its just a heavy load to shoulder. Just when things slow down I’ll get the thought “you know who I haven’t spoken to in a minute? Who would be excited about this? Oh Yeah nvm” I just miss you Dad. I still can’t even believe this & probably something I’ll never understand.