Still alive, hanging in the bean field, puttering around Joes family farm. Each day I get closer to his family and am deeply grateful for that. They’re amazing and it makes sense because Joe was a perfect angel. Couldn’t have asked for or even dreamed of someone better, everyone who knew him knows it’s true. What did it feel like to be the best??? Thank you all my friends who swooped in to help and hold the Haener’s and I. I’m speechless and in a fog but someday I’ll find the words and be able to show you my gratitude. Thank you all who donated and shared the Go Fund Me. I’m blown away by all the love and support. Here are some lyrics I wrote for a secret wedding song for Joe a couple of weeks before he passed “beautiful guy with the sun in your eyes, I’ve been waiting for this kind of love, and now you’re all mine all the time. You’re so much more than I knew I could ask for, mister sandman brought me a dream and now you’re all my mine for all of time”