I’ve modeled since I was 13 and my perception of myself has constantly been distorted. I enjoy wearing wigs and dressing up as someone I’m not because I can escape myself for awhile. It’s hard to be myself online and be vulnerable, I think it’s easier to pretend to be someone your not by not opening up online about your struggles and to pretend to be someone you wish you were. I think that’s why I like the idea of dressing up because it allows me to escape myself for awhile. I’ll do anything to distract myself from the intrusive thoughts that creep in when it’s quite. I’m not perfect, social media is fake and I hope you don’t ever take this shit seriously. I tend to compare online a lot and I have to know my limits because it can be debilitating. It seriously can tear you apart. Modeling at a young age tore me to shreds, it boosted my ego through the roof to only shatter it into a million pieces which forced me to need years of therapy to realize my worth and identity are not found in modeling and my appearance. I just want you guys to know that it’s not all that it seems. You are wonderfully made. Don’t make anyone think you are less than beautiful and not worthy, life is too short to let someone steal your sunshine.