hi. today marks exactly 458 days since i left my last treatment center. it is also the longest i have ever actively maintained my recovery since i began suffering from this illness some years ago. recovery has not been and never will be easy. there’s been many ups and plenty of downs, so many struggles, so many failures and so many successes, so many moments of pure happiness and true joy. lots of tears. sometimes, i admit, i want to give up, im human, i get tired and it’s goddamn exhausting to fight something that can feel so intrinsically un-winable and unending. it’s easier to simply quit. But for the 9 times i want to stop, and let go of this recovery, 10 times i do the much harder thing, and i choose to live♥️ feeling grateful and proud of my strength this thanksgiving at home🌷