👋🏻 Been offline for a bit to tune inwards and focus on healing, breathing, decompressing... releasing The last three months (and truthfully this whole year) have held so much transformation that even beginning to attempt to communicate on here has been overwhelming. Thanks to everyone who has continued to support and listen to the podcast and check in on the various portals ~ means the world ❤️ Rawness in real time: it is 12pm est on 10.8.22 and I am sobbing as i write this from my dearest @awaveawake family flat in NYC because i just can not believe the layers of life that I have passed through to get HERE, NOW. I feel deeply grateful to be alive and pain free in this moment and to be held by my own strength and by the most magical team of allies who show up to pull me through this crazy fucking year. You know who you are. I love you. Thank you for being patient with me as I figure it all out. In a nutshell, since May, I moved into a new home, found closure on two deep and complex relationships, hit my lowest of lows mentally / physically / emotionally, sunk my financial rockbottom to a whole new level so that I had to pause all my businesses and borrow money just to stay afloat of my medical and basic living bills, watched lifelong support systems collapse, the list goes on.... Three months ago I was entertaining suicidal thoughts and two months ago today I went under the knife for my first surgery ever; my body is only starting to feel whole again... at one point I weighed 100 lbs and then I stopped checking because i just didn’t want to see the number... all of this alongside exquisite highs and blessings I never dreamt could unfold As I begin to weave together the debris of this post-Saturn return tornado I am committed to sharing my process with as much transparency as possible (here and on the pod) so I can help people who may be journeying and hitting hard walls in dark places. When I was at my lowest I promised myself that if i pulled through it I would do everything I could to help others who are in it so... here we are ... Continued below 👇🏽