My Faith Journey.... Yall I was almost evicted twice in 2 apartments and in less then a year. My relationship at the time broke under the stress of finances and having a child. Family got upset and turned on me. My anger and inability to manage stress as well as challenges with my "Bluntness" left me feeling very alone. Me and my son ended up in a SHELTER because life got that bad, yall! I lost my job, my home and family in 3 months!!! What's worse is I could not understand Why? I didn't understand that trying to hold on and control what I was afraid to lose would cost me to lost it all anyway. Now I am BLESSED with family who shows up! They don't ask questions or try to get all up in MA business, either. Nor do they judge. Unfortunately, because of my emotional state, and guilt I struggled to access them. So what was the lesson?! I had to learn to Trust God! Trust in that little voice I thought was me and have learned its night. I was guided to do 5 or 6 fasts. Was sent to Atlanta for my "Wilderness" season. I had to drive to face those who hurt me and stay. Sit in all of it. I had to cry and hate myself. I had to let my son be my lifeline. I HAD TO SIT AND SUFFER! SIT AND WATCH MY LIFE SET ABLAZE AND JUST CRY. All while being told to trust. But now that i have! You cannot tell me you can do for my son better then I! Or that I need to walk in fear and anxiety about things. I won't hear I am less then or not an incredible person cuz God proved otherwise. I won't accept less because God showed me if no one else will give it, God got me! Sometimes the flames, wilderness are a call for surrender. Let it crash and burn so you can rebuild it betrer! #CapCut #sunday #sundayfunday #christian #god #selfcare #surrender #single #growth #fypシ #trending #tiktok #funny #comedyindia