Most my childhood and teenage years I was severely bullied, my appearance and weight was one of the reasons I was bullied. I have given my all for the past 5 years to lose what is now 90lbs in total weight loss. Through it all I have dealt with an eating disorder, body dismorphia and have spent time in hospital. I used to think that these perfect physics reflected the mental state of those I desperately wanted to look like, I quickly learned that wasn’t the case. I have learned more than I imagined and try to focus now on how I feel mentally during my workouts and have a healthier relationship with food. It does take a lot of time and discipline but you can enjoy life, food and have much more fun than you can imagine when trying to lose weight. When I met Camille my life changed for good, she has loved, helped and motivated me through it all. Camille has always been my greatest support and has loved me through every stage, the good and the bad. I share this with hope it can help those that may struggle in silence as I still do and want you to know that you are not broken and you are not alone. I read a quote one that read “You're so busy doubting yourself while so many others are intimidated by your potential.” Think about those words, set new, exciting and ambitious goals and you will be shocked at what you can accomplish. Never judge a book by its cover, whatever it looks like. Everyone is going through something.