Heading into Surgery today and wanted to share some feelings. If I said I was handling this situation like a “WOLF” and not bothered by it at all I’d be lying. Wednesday this week I had told myself, “this is the last day you’re allowed to feel bad and be negative, so get it all out of your system.” And sure enough Thursday came around and I said the same thing. Reminded me of a quote that used to get me going which was “yesterday you said tomorrow.” Well yesterday I did say tomorrow, and that tomorrow is today. While watching TV I heard “everyone processes their pain differently.” I laughed as I shoved pizza and ice cream into my mouth because food and self isolation is my form of processing. Normally it would be the gym and running but granted the circumstances I can’t right now. It got me thinking of all the times I’ve had to restart in life. How many times life felt like a game of snakes and ladders and for just as many times I went up a ladder, I fell down a snake. It gave me perspective over all the pain I’ve felt in my life. The reason I’ve gotten into such great shape in my life or achieved such great success is because of the amount of pain I’ve gone through spiritually, physically and emotionally. The pain isn’t wasted and life isn’t punishing me. The pain strengthens me and gets me ready for the next level and chapter in life. Something TRAUMATIC I faced 5 years ago could be an easy fly on the shoulder now because of how much I’ve grown and evolved since then. So YES, I am going through it right now. I’m gaining weight. I’m unhappy. Everything in my life is imploding and on top of it I look scary because of my injuries. But that just means the next chapter is going to be better than I even know. I’m going to come out the other side stronger mentally and physically. The best is yet to come! Life is like a store where you turn in your pain and hardships in and in return you get blessings and advancements back into your life. Well, time to cash in. See you on the other side. 🐺