Happy Sunday! Go easy on yourself today. ✨ @a.m.hanna @blessthemessy • I forget this day exists until I open my phone. There isn’t celebration for me, just a painful stab reminder of what I never had, longed for, and spent years in turmoil over. You may have noticed, I actually don’t even carry Father’s Day cards in my shop. I try every year to make them and i feel lost because I cannot come up with what you say to a dad figure human type person. My bio dad left when I was born because things were messy. My mother married another man, so at age five I was adopted to share the last name of my siblings. When they got divorced, I suddenly was not his “real” daughter anymore. My biological father and I tried to reconcile for many years. But he did not want to speak or heal the past. Which led to lots of fights, silent treatments, gaslighting, shame, and *extremely* conditional love. Concluding with, not speaking since the day I came out. I still feel the pain of dads. Of never getting the chance to be a “daddy’s girl”. Of being jealous that both men have families with other kids and I’m just this lone rejected piece. It’s taken a lot of learning to love myself and healthy boundaries to keep me okay. My boundaries include zero contact and that is OKAY. And while it still really stings sometimes, my heart is healed in small ways. Watching Greg love, teach, and cherish our kids has been one of the biggest gifts of my life. I could not ever have dreamed of a better co parent and dad for these wildlings. He is everything that is deserving and worthy of celebrating today. So, whether today is a celebration of a man that guided you and loved you through life. Or a day that burns because you lost your Dad and the whole still feels enormous. Or a day that you wish would just pass by on the calendar because of the pain, just know I see you and am holding space for all the different dad relationships we endure. Take care of yourself today. xo ❤️💔 xo Jess