Instagram Vs Reality 💔 Since my biggest relapse in 6 years last November people often ask me how do I have the energy for doing everything I do. Living with CIDP, doing makeup, going the gym, having social life. The truth is, I don’t. Everyday things can take up much more energy out of me than it would from a healthy person. Walking can be harder. Stairs are one of my biggest challenges. And I may not have the energy or flexibility but I have motivation and appreciation to the things around me. My muscles may be weak but my heart is strong. I worked hard on my mindset and thanks to that, I believe I am one of the strongest people you could ever meet. I worked on my mind and now it’s time to work on my muscles. Not sure if that would help or how much it would help but as long as I try my best, that’s all I can do. And I’ll never blame myself again for that illness. I could do nothing to prevent it despite everything people said in the past but I can do a lot to make my life that little bit better. I hate my disease but in a way, I am grateful for it. It helped me to appreciate the things in life, people around me, changed my mindset and made me work to make my life better. I want to thank my family, friends and my workmates for being so supportive. They may not fully understand it but they support me regardless and you can’t put a price on that ❤️ I love my life and I wouldn’t change it for the world. The 6-weekly IVIg infusions are one of the biggest downsides of my life and I do hate them but I don’t have much choice if I want to live a pretty normal life like I could up to now. Therefore, I can’t stress too much about things I can’t really control. It helps me, that’s all that matters after all. How does it relate to my makeup page? Well, without makeup I don’t know how I’d go through my relapse. It helped me to feel like I can do anything at the time when I felt the most useless. So I will not stop doing this because it has saved me once and I am sure that if this ever happens again, my skill will be there to help me once again.