A happy farewell to this Summer: heatwave turning the fields the colour of straw, watching a butterfly get captured in spider web, whir of a fan, blood shed, infestations, nocturnal, admiration for the natural world that holds us up even when we are horrible to it, depression, skin crawling, no fear of missing out on anything, numb but fearful, tripping up on the way home on a better day, seeing the crickets make the sound, seeing it all a bit different, Arthur Russell world of echo to keep company to fall asleep to whilst on the mattress on the floor - bugs on the walls, new bed which aidan helps me spray paint it blue even though it’s around midnight and assembling the bed was a nightmare, blue snot for 2 days after