WOULD ANYONE EVEN CARE?!?!?! The only thing that truly stops me from leaving this world by my own doing is those 4 beautiful boys I created. I can't imagine the pain it would cause them. even tho I think they'd be better off without me. without me screwing them up as I'm told all the time. ruining their lives and everyone else's just by breathing. sometimes I fear the love I have for my kids won't always be enough.somedays I just cant take anymore and want to be free.but for today it's enough.