Airport selfie on 2 hours of sleep cuz.yesterday was my ama’s birthday and damn if it don’t just hit weird sometimes. and thank you to the human who told me after my ama died, that i would live with her death for a long time. That it would walk with me and shape-shift through the years. . Yesterday i felt so jiggly.at one point i wondered what was wrong with me.it was as though every single individual cell of my body was vibrating at a different frequency. And the eclipse in Taurus. And i am walking around the house in a torn pair of summer shorts and can’t complete a single task it took me 10 hours to take a shower and wash my hair it took 7 hours to finish drinking one cup of tea. I took a nap but it wouldn’t take me. And then. I realized. That it was mommy’s birthday and something inside of me settled down. . Why does this happen? Why does the day, a certain day, pop up and bring on a sizzling of self? I do not know. Death is wild tho. It is like it is not death at all. It is like it is a second electric plane right here next to us the whole time. . One of my teachers tells me that love, as a body being of the energetic, is ALWAYS just right over our right shoulder. That if/when we are feeling disconnected from the love of our love, we have but to ask, to make a request of the love, to come into our body, to come into presence and make itself known and felt. We can be specific. Asking is the most important because of the kind of freewill that humans have access to. So. Then. We walk with so much extra in this world/universe. . Here is an airport selfie of me. On my way to the city where my parents met. On my way to the city where my human body was born with me in it. On my way to a city with a wild, wide lake presence. On my way to the very beginning of my capacity to make memories. . We know that there is peace in every single breath that we take. I sing peace into the wide open skies today. I honor the peace that rises up within, just as I honor your rage and creativity. We are all here together. . See ya soon MKE! #vanessagerman #airportselfie