a nigga out here transgendering and whatnot meaning my gender is expansive dysphoria - a curse of white supremacy. how weird to be obsessed with my genitals yet have no idea what to do with them 🤔 i find home in this body the best way i know how, and that ain't even really about my gender except for when it is. but it's also about staying much longer than I'd planned. being alive and wanting it to stay that way most days. it's about learning to listen to and trust this body, because that's what healing looks like too. it's about healing and a nigga talk a good game but i am sooo resistant to my own healing 🙃 it's about knowing what it mine to hold, and what I need to release. it's about saying yes to me, first. that's all this is. i'm saying yes to me, first. euphoria is me saying yes to whoever the fuck i am and whoever the fuck i become. my most honest gender these days: grumpy, sexy nigga. I feel most me when I'm shuffling around, grumbling under my breath in my drawers, fussing about something. like somebody granddaddy. my gender-full and genderless friends, what's your most honest gender(s)? ALSO! Have you gotten you ticket yet to ✨ Transmutation: A Ceremony ✨ the screening in this Sunday, 11/21, 2-4pm PST 5-7pm EST tickets at the 🔗 in my bio #TransAwarenessWeek ID 1: Jaden, with a filter, with his glasses on too of his head. He's wearing a navy blue turtleneck ID 2: 7 or 8 year old Jaden, smiling. He's giving a young Tracy Chapman queers vibes ID 3: Jaden, smiling with his hands behind his back in a bathroom with a yellow tiled wall. He's wearing a black shirt and a moustache necklace ID 4: Baby Jaden, circa early 90s, with his mom ID 5: 13 year old Jaden at his parents wedding, giving Robyn Crawford queers vibes, in a chaste white dress with shoulder pads that was probably from Dillard's ID 6: Jaden, dancing at his 16th birthday. He's in the center of the circle, smiling like he bout to look back at it ID 7: Jaden, looking off in the distance, solemnly ID 8: Jaden wearing an olive green shirt and collar chain, standing in front of a bed image description continued in comments