The Italians are scandalized because I’m traveling alone again 🥰. They are such naturally beautiful social beings they worry about people being alone. Aren’t they wonderful? But I love solo time & I also crave it— my body requires it. People always ask me: how do you do so many things, be so busy, etc & the answer is 2 things: I crawl into the darkness of silent solo time often & I cry like a mad woman often. Now crying also gets such a bad rap in our culture. People think of it as a mental breakdown & the ultimate expression of weakness. I find it to be one of the best releases of stress, drama and trauma that I know- especially when done consciously with a full birth/death cycle. Meaning it starts, roars and then ends with a very sharp cutting, like a head getting chopped off by a well-trained executioner. There are no messy stragglers that you drag around after it’s done. After my father died in college my water ducts closed up: I went almost a decade without crying. The well went dry. It took many years to find the rivers within me, to dig them up, honor them, let the water flow and to realize how therapeutic it is for me. I now officially love to cry. I close my eyes & use a mix of movement, sound & meditation to travel to the deepest holes inside my body, then I start to mine what’s there. Sometimes I do this daily, sometimes weekly. This morning I did it while in the Ligurian sea: 1st I floated & allowed the dark early morning water to merge with my skin. As i surrendered to the fear (that always consumes me when I lie still in deep waters) my body began to move like pasta in hot water. I had swirly octopus limbs. I felt old anger and ancient grief bubble up and speak. My body was dragged up onto a giant slab of barnacled rock and I just stayed there, letting water rush over me and out of me at the same time. I was crying singing, toning & processing things from last week, last year and last lifetime. My higher self shot out, speaking her strange language & guiding the whole operation. This kind of work clears me out like no other, it purifies, grounds and it teaches. I always emerge stronger, clearer, braver. PROUD CRIERS UNITE😂!!️