I am beyond speechless about what happened last night at Kinky Sundays! I will never ever forget this 4hr ride I had. I’m gonna be really open and honest about my mental health. Since everything reopened (post covid), I struggled a lot with anxiety, panic attacks and insecurities. Am I good enough? Do I matter? Is my music something people like to hear? These were all voices I had in my head while playing some of my sets. It made me loose the joy in DJ’ing for a crowd a little bit. I kept pushing myself because I know what music can do.. In the end, music is healing. Over this weekend during pride in Amsterdam and in Hamburg I am finally able to recognize that this is all in my own head. The only thing which is holding me back from enjoying to do what I love.. Is talking myself down, and overthink everything. Last night at Kinky Sundays was the very first time I could switch all these voices off completely and enjoy my own set to the max, which I very very very did! Noticing my own growth during the night was so special and the support of the crowd was incredible. I never ever experienced a crowd in this way. You really really left me speechless when I got back to my hotel room. I want to thank everyone for the incredible energy last night. @kinky.sundays and @thor.junge for believing in me and having me close Hamburg pride. Coming to Pal is like coming home everytime again. Beside everyone involved last night, I’m also very gratefull and thankfull to each and everyone who believes in me and gave me beautiful opportunities. But most important.. I think I am going to start believing in myself. ❤️