The look of Jemaine Clement after explaining to me that sitting on a table in New Zealand is cultural taboo. I thought he was joking. Nope. It’s a thing. In other news, I’m thinking of shaking some things up. I wanna live life, see people I love, meet new folks, explore new places, try new things, dance until my clothes are soaked, celebrate life, walk with others in sadness, create space for curiosity...but ultimately working towards not constantly thinking about serving my digital avatar called social media. I didn’t realize until recently that everything I do...the thought of posting to some version of social media crosses my mind which means I’m no longer living my life but rather living to serve this life that you are reading about right now. It’s a weird thought. Even down to my workouts, I’m mostly concerned with recording it so i can post about it on Strava. I’m still figuring out how I feel about it but overall, I want to be more present. So I’m gonna post when I feel like it and try to remember what enjoying a moment without feeling the need to capture it feels like. Also, it might be strange to hear me talk about myself in a post as I usually just write the subjects name and try to remove myself completely. But that’s insane as all art reflects the voice of the artist. So...I’m breaking format. I’m just going to write whatever I feel like. A memory. A joke. Maybe nothing at all. I might even start posting photos that aren’t instant film. I mean...let’s not get too crazy here. But I want the freedom to break out of this locked idea of what everyone tells me social media is and how I should use it. Cause really...no one knows. The only thing I know is that I want to feel real and that it’s ok to have moments I share with myself and no one else. To remove that tiny voice in the back of my head that says I need to capture the moment vertically cause it looks better in that format for IG stories. Maybe I’m crazy. And maybe I subconsciously choosing to come out like this on a photo of Jemaine because he doesn’t even have social media (I’m so jealous). I feel excited about changing. I don’t know where it’s going. I just know it can’t stay the same.