Just because you give attention to someone/something doesn't mean it belongs to you, does it? Bruv, the truth is most of the things I do are out of envy. I might delete my pictures again btw, and don’t ask me why because we both don’t care. And I don’t want to be a slave of coherence and « what works ». I don’t read my life like I read a clock. I’m not on a linear understanding, I’m on God’s one and sometimes it looks nothing like coherence to us. It may look like a prayer made a thousand years ago that is manifesting today. How can I make sense of it ? I can’t. I don’t want to. We are owners of nothing, trying to over-control is not humble. I had a long convo with my husby and we concluded that the truth is in freedom. I can’t be myself if I can’t be this huge mess. Remember, I told y’all I wanted to connect again, but I’ve been holding it back bc I didn’t want to come with a parody of myself, so I kept quiet. And maybe the truth looks similar to what is not entirely true, but the roots are located somewhere else. Anyway it’s 3am, see you in the day time.