be your human self not your highest self 🙃☁️🍒✨ you know for a couple of years there I was really suffering not just because I wasn’t listening as intently to my intuition/body/gut as I once had but because I knew I wasn’t listening and I felt bad about it it was an immense and punitive internal experience to get hits of guidance and get off on the high of knowing I “should” be living a certain way (aligned, honest, listening, trusting!) to have the imaginative gift of visions & optimism and spiritual insight but to seemingly, in my behavior be continually “choosing” to ignore the messages/signs/flashing lights of my body and go back to old patterns/survival tactics/trauma responses. it was particularly harmful because I was sure that my inability to integrate the messages/guidance I was receiving somehow made me bad/worse/unworthy which in turn made me very unhappy and created a dynamic where any decisions I made that weren’t my “highest self” (woof) were plagued with meta emotions of self doubt & criticism I would then scramble for my next spiritual high, the hit of clarity of what I should do (either from a psychic or a vision or a drug), only to berate myself for not being able to realize it in this dimension. the weapon of perfectionism aimed at the innocence of a nervous system, who has been trained for a lifetime in the opposite direction of listening to its intuition. it’s not your fault! what I learned from feeling so lost was that whether you momentarily stray from your inner voice or monumentally stray for years or lifetimes, if you set down the cruelty towards yourself that it should be another way, or you should be another way, if you let yourself be your most human rather than your highest self, you can find your way back to a place that feels like it just might be accessible to listen to your gut. Just might be safe to start to act on your instincts. Just might be ok to take a risk in the direction of trust. you can do this much more quickly through kindness and care than not. I believe in you. 🎈✨🎈