« How you remind me...of what I really am... » Today reminded me of who I really am. Just like most time I come to NYC. As I was biking under the rain for 40mins, I was getting happier and happier, while screaming at careless drivers and laughing at random people doing random things, acting up in the sudden rain. I realized why I am this crazy weird mix of a person, a sensitive cancer with a strong masculine energy, wanting to control all but really begging to trust enough to sometimes let go and surrender. I realized that NYC made me, this woman I am today. I spent all of my 20s here. I had to grow tougher, fight harder and always hustle. I learned to only count on me, to trust no one and learn survival here. Not only NYC, but a toxic relationship that lasted as long as my life in nyc did created all kinds of coping mechanisms inside of my head that make it harder for me to trust and let go. I realized while biking that life is good, that I am safe, that I deserve everything coming my way. That I shine in a way few people do and that my super power is to make people feel seen. Mostly I realized I actually know myself and love who I am deeply. Today was a great day in so many ways, I was able to receive and give, I was blessed to work, play and feel fulfilled and seen. When the rain started, I understood why I left NYC. I left so I can come back and finally feel happy and blessed to be rained on, not mad and angry as I used to feel when I lived here and that would happen to me. Today this rain was a real treat. I even shared a moment with a fellow bike rider at a red light, he doubted of my sanity and asked me if I needed help...but I told him I was just happy, he smiled and said “i am glad, thank you!” and took off. THE END.