hey guysssss sooooo don’t take this the wrong way but i just made a song called “NYFU” 😭😭😭😭 i’m sorry LMAOOOO cause i know you guys are having sooo much fun out there & a part of me does have fomo but i just wanted to do something different this year & take some time for myself. i’m always always always going to love, enjoy, & adore fashion week & the abundant creativity you get to experience just being in the space—that’s my joie de vivre quite honestly, but i also realized that fashion week is something that comes every year (4-6 months tbh) & i’m allowed to take that time for myself if need be without feeling like it’s the end of the world. in this song, i think i’m talking more about the ego boosts that come with being in front of all those cameras & getting into those events & being in this room with that person & that room with this person. as well as the deflation of the ego that come with constantly being perceived on if your outfit was good enough or if you got into this show or who’s name is on what list & who do you have to call & the extreme stress, pressure, & anxiety that can come with all of that honestly. & the thing is, once you do get into that room after fighting so hard to be there, you realize the thing that you fought for was really your self worth. but idk maybe i’m just rambling & maybe this song is just another one of those rambles but ever since i released bottled, i’ve been in a space where i want to show more of this side of myself with you guys & on a consistent level. my music means the world to me & because of that, i’ve been extremely private about it & i’ve failed to see things through that i put so much of myself into. so i just really want to change that by doing the actions that i’m afraid of—like this & maybe this time that i’m taking for myself is really just so i can get stronger & heal so i can return to you guys or fashion week or whatever it is, a more whole version of myself. healing those deep seated traumas and insecurities that have me looking for my confidence outside of myself. understanding that my value is not determined by external forces, but by the way i see myself & living in that truth. link in bio 🫶