Self Sabotage can be so multi-storied. For some, self-sabotaging is Burj Khalifa high. For me it is. A skyscraper.. except, not the sky it’s reaching .. probably the deepest of hells. I’m just untangling my personality and how complex some of the actions are especially when it comes to things that matter the most. Have you heard the phrase “Marilyn Monroe — 'if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.' So a long time ago I somehow absorbed the quote into my veins and took it up a notch (or 10 notches)and the dance now starts with me stepping on your foot, before the best Elvis moves I could have impressed you with from the top. Can anyone relate? Has anyone sabotaged their own dreams, futures, and potentials by simply not aiming to impress but starting up with the clumsiest version of themselves? I'm so fascinated by people who can put their best foot forward, or who can just not even care about any of that and simply go through their life in a natural flow... I'm bringing this “crush” side-by-side example because as I speak with my friends there are two clear types of people out there and I felt so disconnected from the first type.. even a little envious of them because it’s something I can see myself doing but stopping at all costs from being like her (in the first stages of any beginnings? - castings is a great example - when I meet a client for the first time .. gosh it’s the worst - let’s make the worst impression and if they STILL like my moves/personality there - oh they gonna love everything from that moment on .. ) So the second type (in the pic) .. a bunch of my friends related to it to; are we another extreme?..but also could it be a developed personality that doesn’t need changing? I'm learning to love her. Learning to love the “let’s keep those bars low!From the start to impress them all later” side.Why feel this much guilt and shame over anything at all? Yes, we can observe our actions to act from a real place Vs Automatic, but we can’t sit a judge any layer of ourselves. We danced ourselves into this magnificent moment, we survived things this far that felt stupid and we are OK! We ARE! #selflove