If you saw last episode of The Challenge then you saw me opening up about my mental health journey and antidepressants. It’s hard to imagine people who seem so happy and bubbly as people who are suffering in silence, but it happens all the time. My entire life, especially as a teenage girl I’ve struggled with deep feelings of sadness and hopelessness. But I’m savvy, I dressed up those feelings with jokes, put on a show, and acted like they weren’t there. As I grew older those methods became useful tools to help get me through the harsh world of social media and the exposure of reality tv, But they were just a Band-aid for the real problems. So hitting rock bottom was inevitable. Last year I was in a really dark place, and this is why I decided to look for more help. Going on medication was inspired by a simple Instagram post from @SaraBareilles . She shared a photo of a pill and explained a feeling of bliss and emotional relief, something That felt foreign to me but I knew I really needed. So, without hesitation I just said “fuck it” and made an appointment. I’m posting this because a simple post helped me end years of silent suffering. Everyone deserves to feel OKAY. So thank you Sara Bareilles for sharing because you were a part of freeing myself from an emotional cage I lived in for years. Thank you @mtv , @bunimmurray, and @thechallenge , @drjessigold for supporting me through this process. And for anyone who this post resonates with just know, I love you. You’re not alone, and all the world wants is for you to feel good being you. Additional resources: http://www.mentalhealthishealth.us/ Additionally I’d like to thank Naku for deepening my connection with myself, soul, and healing 🤍 And to @markfoxphoto for capturing this moment of full surrender during my healing journey ♡ @naku.com.ec