My dear friend Paul died recently. To be clear, it wasn’t suicide. But the feelings of wishing I had reached out more remain.... Pau Pau, Being so far away and for so long makes it so hard to fathom that your gone. Almost 25 years ago we met on Xena second unit and become colleagues, friends and family. What a truly special time that was. For us all. I was a child. X2U was a second home, a second family. And you were our team leader. With your unique, thoughtful, quirky, funny, nonjudgmental ways, you were my first director and a massive influence on how I conduct myself, and who I am on set to this day. Those years - on and off set, those friendships, that time spent, stories shared, lessons learned, those memories, are profoundly precious to me. Thank you for everything. For all your glorious, upbeat oddball ways, there always seemed to be a shadow of sadness following you. A weight you were in charge of carrying. Paul, it breaks my heart, to know yours was so heavy. I could have called more. I could have asked you more questions, listened longer, spent more time. I wish I had of. But I didn’t. I hope now, that weight is lifted. Where ever you are..... May you stand straight and light. May the rain cleanse you of pain, the sun fill you with “Paul” glow and the wind clear the path ahead of you. Know you are loved Pau Pau. And will be missed. By many. Be at peace Paul.