it’s my THREE years sober birthday today. three years of being a better friend to me. three years of learning that i have a second wind that i can ride until the sunrise if i want to and if i don’t want to i go home and am not worried about missing out anymore. three years of shedding. three years of being acutely aware of the responsibility i have over my own actions, reactions, emotions, feelings. three years of relying on myself deeper and being open to relying on my friends in a deeper way (and letting them rely on me in a deeper way). three years of not avoiding what is in front of me and taking my time to actually feel through heavy things. sobriety continues to be the greatest gift i’ve ever given myself because it’s a promise to myself that i’m gonna stay in my body and be present to the life i am living in a clear, vulnerable way. sobriety is many things to many people and i’m not ever saying everyone has to live a certain way but i think it’s special to remain curious to the substances and meditators we use to cope with life and stay tender with our own process of growing. very thankful that i am learning tenderness not only through my friendship with myself but through those who have held the clumsy process of my growing with graceful understanding and unconditional love. ❤️ snap from @jacq_justice