(It's my birthday..) Hii!! I'm sorry for the long yap in the caption when it's supposed to be a happy day.. But, since the video itself featured me, myself, and I, I felt like this was appropriate. Just to give context, these are all my personas through the years and how I think we would be interacting :3 Please be weary of the vent here : When I was 11 years old, I was extremely depressed ever since the pandemic. I didn't make so much friends, I believed I could never make more sincere friends, and that I wouldn't make it to *14 years old*. Even after the lockdown, all of my skills socially and my mental health was deteriorating quick before I knew it. Changing schools was the thing that made me realize so and not being able to live with this new environment to my fullest up until now. I even had someone take away so many great opportunities with me when I just started my first year of high school. These horrible memories have been clawing at me for several months, I want it to stop. I've been so tired, so lazy, and so sleepy lately in a way that I felt like I was useless and incapable to the point it affected others. It does, because so many people worry about me and I don't even do anything to help myself. Other than that, I'm still alive and 14 years old. What do I do now? Nothing has changed and nothing special is going to happen even if I age up. School is repeating, I'm involving myself in things I know I won't complete. I'm not doing my best. I'm still suffering both physically and mentally. All I know is that I believe that the end for me won't be that soon. #mayustarz_ #happybirthday #tome #happybirthdaytome