This season of life has been one of the most difficult to date. I moved away from my home state of Oklahoma in July 2022. It was definitely the right time for a life change as it felt like the walls were closing in the longer I lived in Tulsa. Now I live in SLC with my beautiful girlfriend @yeahapril. We certainly adore being with each other and it feels like home being with her. It has been fun exploring our new city and settling into our new home. But, it hasn't come without it's own set of challenges. I have started working full time which has not left much room for the climbing objectives I had planned on committing to this year. Things like traveling, competitions, filming for the documentary, shoot, even finding the time and energy to train has been hard. I've been experiencing some performance drops lately and that's hard for me to stomach. It all seems very overwhelming as the reality of needing to make enough money to support our living needs seems to trump the passion I have for climbing. On top of this, I constantly fight with the anger I feel when it comes to not being able to drive myself around. I know there are work arounds in this situation. But, I find myself getting frustrated when I have to align my life around other people's schedules. And Ubering is either expensive when used often, or doesn't always work out depending on where I'd like to go. The truth is that being a pro climber is incredibly challenging when getting access to real rock is so demonstrative. I don't even know how I'm gonna be able to make it to the project this season up in LCC. I dream of bigger goals than ever these days, but finding the time to train for them or travel to accomplish them seems far-fetched when there's no resources or support available. Still I'm grateful for where I am, but I write this with anger in my heart, a sense of unfairness on my shoulders. But most of all a fucking fire under my ass to change my lifes sercomstances and become the person I truely desire to be. 📸 @kevnjd @boulderdenim @frictionlabs @evolv_worldwide @rhinoskinsolutions @physivantage @natureclimbing @eone @maximropes @organicclimbing