I spent years facing my negative body image and working towards saving that relationship within myself. And in just a matter of months, I felt it all come crashing down again.⁣ ⁣ When I first started fertility treatments in early 2021, I actually felt okay in my body. I felt strong and as though I had unlearned enough damaging societal messages to continue thanking my body everyday. Even through the heartache that would come after many failed procedures. I remember finding out our embryo transfer was successful and I was finally pregnant. I still felt okay. Not as strong, but I was okay.⁣ ⁣ Fast forward 8 weeks in, 12 weeks in, 16 weeks in... and I was no longer taking photos. I was no longer embracing mirrors. I was no longer thanking my body for this gift. I felt disconnected to my body. The constant nausea, vomiting, heartburn, progesterone needles. It was like it all hit me at once and I was angry with my body. I also knew it would take longer for me to look pregnant. I mean, again, I had spent years recognizing the lack of plus size pregnant belly representation and realizing mine is just as beautiful and valid. But I’m still human. And these things still ended up hitting me hard.⁣ ⁣ #infertility #pcosawareness #bodyimage #thankyoubody #ivfjourney