It's just, I cry when I feel happy to write with a girl I like. It doesn't feel right anymore and I feel stupid for needing a toxic relationship. I get it, it's wrong but I had one and it was comforting to me even if that's stupid and some won't understand. I love love but I also hate it. It's one of the worst feelings for me and maybe I never loved anyone before. Maybe one of my exes was right and I just get attached but don't love. I mean, I don't know anymore. When I love someone, they need to be older. I hate that I can't date someone my age. I just can't. I overthink way too much. And when I date someone older they hate my age or won't accept it and when I or they break up it's cause of my age or cause I'm not their top. I'm sorry, I can't be who you want but I can't change that. I can't play someone I don't even wanna be. That's way too hard for me and it doesn't feel right but getting loved doesn't feel right either. I know everyone deserves some love but I don't think so. I hate myself because I can't make anyone happy. Either I fight, do something wrong or I'm just not the right person. Wish I could not be here anymore but sadly my cats need me.. 💗 #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #love #wlw #toxic #fy #fyp #foryou #foryoupage #fypage #fypviral #viral #fypageシ #fypviralシ