Music and the environment as a tool of liberation and healing. My earliest memory with playing music was when I was 12 and picked up the saxophone in a music class. I never wanted to be a musician nor saw myself as a creative but rather someone who was curious how air and metal react. I learned how to play alto and tenor saxophone from the ages of 12-17 and practiced whenever I can because saxophones have a depth voice. When I stopped playing a musical instrument, I felt that I had left a part of my younger self behind even though the way I was taught to learn, read, and write music was through many Black and Latin musicians that inspired me. I did not struggle when it came to play Jazz music and breaking rules within the structures of what was supposed to be seen as proper versus improper. When I quit music in high shool my band teacher told me that I was disappointing everyone but I said, I choose to decide when I want to play music based on my time and heart. I never gave up or stopped playing music. I simply reframed the way I practice music in my work as an environmental act. Music for me exists within the breath of our lungs and art. My writing, foraging, and movement is a musical act. What carries me throughout the movement of arts of culture is how it is able to transmute into what we see as ecomusicology. Sound, nature, and breath go hand in hand when we express ourselves and guides us to storytelling. Perhaps my journey playing a musical instrument had come to a temporary pause because I had wanted to find a reframing structure in how I can love playing music again that was sustainable for my mind. Not for competition, or status but for the interrelated of the whole. #queerbrownvegan #ecomusicology #ecomusical #musical #sustainability