Hello my loves, I missed you all :’) If you didn’t know, I’ve taken a break from IG for these past few months. I’m on here now and then, but nothing like the way I used to. Winter 2024 was a challenging time for me because of a major decision I’ve made. Whether or not it’ll affect my future is not in my hands, so I’ve made my peace with it. But in trying to make peace with it, I went through all the shades of emotions there was. From the low of a soul-crushing grief to the high of absolute euphoria. With every life-changing decision or moment comes the breaking point: you either take the leap or stay in the same place you’ve always known. I was on the third side, the side I’d argue is even more painful and difficult to be in, being stuck frozen in the doorway of change. On one side, theres the crashing waters of the unknown enticing you into the deep end, and on the other is the baggage of past beliefs pulling you back by the neck. The past was familiar, and it was all I’d ever known in my life. I knew things had to change, but I was also afraid. I would run all of the what-ifs in my head and just wanted to bury my head in the sand. For years I walked this earth with a defined sense of what I was suppose to do, and for a while, it was necessary. But now it needed to come down. I finally allowed myself to burn the embers of the parts of me that were holding myself back. And through all the shades of all the highs and lows, I’ve come to a place of peace and acceptance. Don’t get me wrong, the fear is still there, but I’m accepting it and welcoming all the unknown that comes with it. This is a promise to myself and a call to everyone feeling stuck in a similar fashion: do what you need to do- don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Take the time to grieve and feel every inch of that despair; letting go of who you once were is so so painful. You need to go through all the grooves and turbulence to make space for the future. When you’re ready, embrace your new self with a warm hug. They’ll need all the support they can get to take the next steps forward <3