old essay on bodybuilding i wrote for @parole.cc. i was never into bodybuilding per se but years of excessive exercise have built my body nonetheless. i’ve spent countless hours and this essay trying to make sense of my obsession, thinking about how changing my physique has changed my mental state, without ever finding a good answer. there’s something unspeakable about the joy of flesh control. sensations morphed somewhat switching from crossfit to mma, but here i am still 3 years later, cumming all the time. full thing available on parole.cc