RANT ☹️👎 i normally dont post stuff like this nor do i enjoy or like ranting. but this has been on my chest for so so long and i just feel as if my spark keeps flickering in and out for something ive always loved and enjoyed. maybe im toxic? I don’t know im not trying to be toxic if this is considered being toxic. this seems to happen with everything ive loved: i find something underrated and enjoy it while tolerating judgement from others and years or months later people find it and it blows up then my spark dies and usually never comes back.. is this just my bpd? im not sure. :((