✨being ~vulnerable~ on the internet✨ I debated on sharing but I’m three weeks into my sabbatical from work and I feel like it’s time I talk about it. I’m taking a break. I put on a good front, but what no one sees or hears about is the anxiety I experience most days that makes it hard to show up for myself let alone others. Or the severe decision fatigue where small tasks and decisions overwhelm me to the point that I give up. The feeling of loneliness that I can’t escape. I’ve put my own passions, and mental/physical health on the back burner for far too long...until I finally said enough is enough. I’ve been going nonstop, never really taking a moment to breathe, sit, think, or just be. And I think that may have been on purpose. The stillness can be scary sometimes. But I’m doing it and I’m grateful for this time away from a computer screen. If you’re looking for me, I’ll be around—recentering and taking care of myself, doing pilates, resting, sitting down, taking walks, naps, cooking again, crossing things off my to-do list that I keep pushing to the back burner. Living life. But I won’t be actively checking or responding to my R29 email and I won’t be saying yes to anything that doesn’t fully align with my purpose. Whatever that may be. I’m still figuring it all out<3