I became the woman I wished I could be.... . That version of that woman is forever improving... but I never could have imagined I’d actually be here. I worked for it. I’m WORKING really hard for it. And anyone close to me could never downplay the amount of effort, energy, determination, hard work, sweat & sacrifice that goes into all aspects of my life; especially not just my fitness. I have to work hard for what I have, even harder to KEEP it. . I started like a lot people, I spent years struggling on mental health medication, gaining excessive weight, no energy, no confidence, I had a hard time growing up, fell into harder times getting older, I had certain people gravitate toward the victim in me.. & it seemed to seep through in a bad way from my early 20’s onward. I had bulemia & anorexia nervous since 13, I had no concept of self worth and genuinely believe I was the ugliest person on the planet. Unworthy, unlovable & alone. . I didn’t give up. I’m still here and I’m so grateful for the people who made that possible along the way. I’d like to sit here and say I did it myself; but the value of those few friends who are family meant more than all titles of family combined. To get the results I want- I put in the effort ... if it doesn’t work, I try something new and figure out WHY it didn’t work. Self evaluation has always been a huge part of my journey. Not just fitness, but transferable skill into mental health or my career. I hold myself accountable for what I do, and what I need to do. I can sit in the uncomfortable if I have to, I will search for the uncomfortable to grow even. My journey tells only a surface level of a much bigger journey, but I hope with this you realise that’s you’re more capable then you ever knew. I was more capable then I ever knew, & I for once, I am genuinely proud of who I am whilst still fighting for more❤️🌻 happy Sunday everyone 💕 . . . . . . #feminism #darkfeminine #foryou #fitnessmodel #fitnessmotivation #fitnesscompetitor #wbffaustralia #wbffbikini #wbffaustralia #shelifts #fitnessphotography #fitnessphotoshoot