Rereading this @thecreativeindependent interview from almost 4 years ago: [context] a month before I gave birth to Ren and a half a year before covid. I remember it being a confusing time as I had just embarked on a high with work...and as I felt the rise, I felt the shift and I knew everything was about to change. Now that I’ve ‘come out’ the other side, The one big shift since then is this main quote, ‘I’d much rather fail than being in a blind routine.’ Well I’m in that blind routine now: The parental blind routine: the every day wake up, feed, nap, feed, bath, bedtime routine. Even though my life takes me in so many directions, this one thing is the same day in and day out. And guess what, I didn’t fail! Its been a learning experience and it’s been GOOD, even though I instinctually am against it lol. I’ve found the stability to rebuild, go into self work and therapy. and as I change, my inspiration changes, my work changes. With that said, have I become more vulnerable? MAYBE.... with self work, I’m realizing pain is a protection, and that vulnerability is actually quite pleasurable, funny even. And yes I’m still prioritizing saving myself, over my personal work and career, my ‘persona’. The vibes feel steady as of today. Anyway, thanks for listening! And @thecreativeindependent for the reminder of how much I’ve grown and how proud I am of that version of me