Transfer Day Part 2 I promised you all that I would be open and honest. I had times where I was unsure of that decision throughout my IVF journey and even more so after we got the news that our transfer did not work. But going back on my word after being such an open book wouldn’t be right. ...So here it is. One of the happiest days of my life, and then 10 days later one of the saddest moments I’ll never forget. Standing on the side of the road in West Hollywood, hoping for the best....thinking this was MY time, my turn for “happiness”. Life is funny though. When you think you got it figured out, it slaps you in the face and makes you start over. I keep learning that “Gods plans will always be more beautiful than all your disappointments”... I have to keep believing that. I can barely watch the part where I have to verify my name and DOB . It was so hard to rewatch it and cut this video. That part was a moment in time where I saw my baby. It felt final, it felt like this was it....that was my baby..and I got a little preview of them at the earliest stage of their life. It felt other-worldly special, I felt privileged. I really did think that this was going to work. Looking into Maks eyes as he was crying, seeing our baby together...just made this experience so worth it even though it didn’t turn out how we had hoped. I have taken the necessary steps to start the healing process. To sit in my feelings, and feel what I need to, to start moving forward with an open heart. I want to thank you all for coming along with me on this journey. I can’t tell you how much your guidance and advice has helped navigate me through my first round of IVF. From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU 🙏🏻❤️ Thank you to the incredible @scrcivf team and @drmarksurrey I will get my baby, just not right now. ...and to all the women who have gone through this multiple times over, I bow down. You’re warriors and you give me strength everyday. This shit ain’t easy.