A beautiful note written by this mama @wonderfullylostcanada I know it can be really hard to get photos done sometimes but I promise you won’t regret giving yourself that little push. “I am more tired than I have ever been. I dread going to these photos that I’ve booked fully aware of how exhausted and worn out I look. I take a shower and pull shocking handfuls of hair from my head, it mocks me from the shower wall as I finish up. I look in the mirror and see my red skin, the pregnancy rosacea is not finished with me yet. My clothes hug my body awkwardly, tight in places they shouldn’t be, loose in places they shouldn’t be. I beg my friend to come over to do my makeup. She arrives, actually don’t own any real makeup. She makes do and uses bronzer as eyeshadow. I ask her to apply these gaudy fake eyelashes that I bought at the drug store hoping it will help, it doesn’t. It’s almost time to leave, I panic, trying to come up with any excuse to get out of this. I am more tired that I have ever been and yet I am the happiest that I have ever been. I wake up every single morning with an intense sense of gratitude and awe of these tiny humans that look up at me with their perfect blue eyes. They see through all the nonsense. Their favourite place in the world is my soft, squishy lap. I love them with a fierceness and joy that is almost scary to fully comprehend. They love me unconditionally. I am more tired than I have ever been and yet I want to press pause and live with them here, like this, forever. I go. I meet up with the photographer and by some miracle she captures the version of me that they see. Her lens a mimic of those perfect blue eyes. She reflects my joy back to me like an enchanted mirror. She pauses time. And I am more tired than I have ever been. @trinacaryphotography”