hi. it’s 4 am & i can’t sleep. a few days ago, i came across the second photo from 2018 and was absolutely shocked. i couldn’t believe that i was looking at myself 2 years earlier, almost unrecognizable. i remember, i would always tell myself that i was useless, and that my life was a waste. i had the mindset that those around me would live a better life without me around. i wouldn’t allow myself to eat. i stopped trying. i just didn’t care. if you had told me two years ago that i would be where i am today, i would’ve said that you were crazy. i never imagined i would make it past 16. i had planned on running away from home and just rotting in the middle of nowhere. please take this as a learning experience. if you are going through any sort of struggle, understand that things DO get better. you have your whole life ahead of you. allow those around you to care for you. let others in. you are not alone. you can get through ANYTHING. just keep pushing. please don’t give up. life is a beautiful thing, and if you can’t see that now, please keep your head up, and know that you WILL be able to see it soon. i love you. i’m always here for you. you got this.